The Lost Girls.

It was easy for me to feel depressed at the horror, and I was just a visitor passing through. But these kids lived with daily reminders of the violent past and had no choice but to carry on. Again my mind traveled back to Esther and Sister Freda, who showed me that it’s possible to transform ourselves into something greater than our suffering, how life forges on despite pain.

I excused myself to go to the bathroom. Then I stood at the edge of the room and watched the Cambodian teens going about their business. I imagined them wanting the same things that I wanted: To feel safe in an unpredictable world. To work toward somethings that mattered. To know love. To belong.

– Chapter 23, Holly. Boston, Massachusetts/Cambodia. December-January.

I’m not done with this book yet. A part of me hopes the end doesn’t even come. Because, I know I’ll never quite be able to find another travel memoir that matches up to this book. I’m not even kidding. All of you, who suffer from insatiable wanderlust like me, need to get your hands on this book. I’m not sure if the male gender can relate to this book as much as a female does. Especially if you’re a 20-something-year-old female. This book speaks to me through and through. Since also, it’s a true story of the 3 girls below.

[From left to right] Jennifer, Holly and Amanda

And if you’re looking for an actual review of this book, before you actually read it. Head over here (a review by Athira from Reading on a Rainy Day).

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Chronic Dissatisfaction.

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Chronic Dissatisfaction, a term María Elena played by Penelope Cruz diagnoses Cristina to have in  the movie, Vicky Cristina Barcelona, as she is always dissatisfied with what she has, at present. She is always restless and aches for something new to happen in her life. It’s like she’s searching for something she doesn’t know what it even is. To label, let alone describe.

Have you ever found yourself in this position? I constantly do.

Vicky made me wonder about the harsh possibility of wanting/dreaming about something your whole life, that it eventually might end up as something you don’t quite want. In her case, it was a person, a life, a marriage she was about to set foot into. Sometimes, I think that the very reason for this paralysis of indecision to hit us when we need to make a decision is because, we have an abundance of choices before us.

In chapter 2 (Marriage & Expectation) of Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace With Marriage, Elizabeth Gilbert says,

“When you have only one path set before you, you can generally feel confident that it was the correct path to have taken.”

Yes, I love this author, this book, this freaking chapter if you haven’t already deduced.

It’s the constant predicament we go through and the constant questioning of whether “this is really what we want” that inhibits us from making a decision in the first place.  Simply put, the paralysis of indecision.

“Vicky returned home to have her grand wedding to Doug. To the house they finally planned to settle in. And to lead the life she envisioned for herself, before that summer in Barcelona. Cristina continued searching… certain only, of what she didn’t want.”

I just finished a book by Sarah Dessen, The truth about forever.

“That was thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. But there was only one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening.”

It reminded me, yet again, of the picturesque future, Utopia that we make up in our minds is all fictional. What we really have, is now. We don’t need labels for every aspect of our lives, we just to need live and let live. The forever, love claims to be about, might not be case. Forever begins from now, this moment. And this moment, is what counts. Not the happily ever after that might or might not be. As Priya Basil says in The Obscure Logic Of  The Heart,

“I don’t see a point of deferring happiness for some future promise of salvation.”

Going back to the film, it did great in capturing both the love and hate in the complex relationship(s) played by all four characters – María, Cristina, Vicky and Juan. Also, if you aren’t already in love with Barcelona, this film will help you lose yourself in the beautiful Gaudi architecture. And lastly, Woody Allen. Every of his film needs a watch. Enuff’ said.

So go catch this! It’s a very light-hearted movie about love, relationships and its complexities.

“Our love will last forever. It’s forever but it just doesn’t work. That’s why it will always be romantic because it cannot be complete.”

Looking for alaska.

John Green’s first novel and yet, I was blown away. I loved his style of writing. This book reminded me a lot of Perks of being a wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.

I loved the fact the ending wasn’t happy nor were all the questions raised, answered. It felt so real, that it didn’t even feel like I was reading a fictional work. In John Green’s words when asked about the ending,

“The truth is that in our lives we are all going to encounter questions that should be answered, that deserve to be answered, and yet probe unanswerable. Can we find meaning to life without those answers? Can we find a way to acknowledge the reality (and injustice) of suffering without giving in to hopelessness? Those are the questions I think Miles is confronting at the end, and I wanted to argue that through forgiveness, it is possible to live a full and hopeful life – even if our world is saturated with injustice and loss.”

Please read this book if you haven’t or re-read it, if it has faded away from your memory. I literally couldn’t put this book down and finished it within a span of hours.

There is such beauty in tragedy.

Any of his other works that you’d like to recommend me?

Friday favourites!

1. This reminded me again why I love having a camera with me at all times. You just never know which moment you’d like to capture and look back on 10 years from now.

2. Current blog I’m loving, Simplistic living.

3. Post of the week: Those lovely scary feelings

4. Favourite TED talk I just watched and you should to;

5. Favourite Art Store: Society6

How pretty are their Iphone cases? If I ever switch from BB, you know why. I might just settle for some framed art prints, though I might need more walls in my room to actually hang all the pretty things I’ve accumulated over time.

6. Mantra for all readers/bloggers

7. Highly anticipating all the books that are on the way to reaching my hands.

1. The Friday Night Knitting Club by Kate Jacobs

2. Where we belong by Emily Griffin

3. The lazy millionaire by Marc Fisher

4. Looking for Alaska by John Green

5. The Lost Girls by Amanda Pressner

I’m almost 3/4 way through Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace with Marriage. I can barely put it down despite starting the book just yesterday. Hopefully, my books arrive just in time to fix the bookworm in me.

I need either to get myself a Kindle or get a new cupboard for my books.

Happy friday, ya’ll.

Currently.

The post below has been inspired by Danielle so I take no credit for the idea.

Reading: Elizabeth Gilbert’s Eat, Pray, Love. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve read this but I’m re-reading this again and then gonna get started on Committed. I still can’t decide if I prefer EPL the book or the movie starring Julia Roberts. If my house was burning down, this would definitely be one of the books I’ll save. Followed by Perks of being a wallflower and then Mitch Albom’s books. Tuesdays with Morrie is my favourite.

Watching/listening to: Adele’s royal albert hall performance.

I might have already watched this 48.65 times but I just cannot get enough of this. I used to enjoy her music on it’s own but after this concert of hers, no prizes for guessing the latest addition to my bucket list. TO WATCH HER CONCERT LIVE! Her personality just shines through so brilliantly with her little anecdotes before every song, jokes and laughter. She doesn’t wear a mask or try and hide her real self from her audience. It’s almost rare to find such a celebrity/artiste these days isn’t it? Tell me which other celebrity can remark “I’m such a emotional wreck” and laugh off her tears after rendering “Someone like you” – her famous break-up record from her album 21!

Buying this album was such a perfect start to my year. Adele is such a vocal goddess. Please check this concert out if you haven’t, I assure you best 99 mins and 19 seconds ever spent.

Working on: All the things I’ve started on this week alone. OMG!

The highlight would be this – The Smart Local. As the name suggests it’s a broader version of Hungrygowhere. You can find reviews of anything and everything available in Singapore here. Helpful site for both locals and foreigners. Do check them out!

Also, working on my bucket list for Australia. Listography is such an awesome page for you to collate all your bucket lists and tick them off as and when you complete them. How cool is that?!

Thinking about: To swim twice before Monday. Travel plans for this year.

Anticipating: I need to get my hands on a couple of books. Times seems to have ran out of all the books I’ve wanted. Boohoo! Buying books in Singapore has become a pain and hassle after the closing of Borders and Page One. We just have Times, MPH and Kinokuniya left. Popular doesn’t really count, does it? Have I missed any other bookstore out?

1. The lazy millionaire by Marc Fisher.

2. Looking for Alaska by John Green.

I might just settle for Amazon. Pfft.

Feel free to do your own “currently” post. You might just have as much fun as I did. Have a great weekend, lovely people!

P.S. I’m new to this, so I’d appreciate all the love I can get. Merci beaucoup.