The Fault in Our Stars.

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TFiOS, the movie I had been looking forward to since the beginning of the year.

The love story of Augustus Waters and Hazel Grace just makes you believe.. in life and love. It reminds you pain demands to be felt and that it’s okay to let the anguish hurt you. The scene of Hazel telling her mother “my greatest fear is that when I’m gone, you’re not going to have a life anymore” was just heart-wrenching. Shailene Woodley, plays the character of Hazel Grace so beautifully you’ll forget that she is actually a grenade. She tries pushing Augustus away for the very same reason only to end up falling deeper in love with him. Ansel Elgort fits the role of Augustus perfectly with his goofy personality and charming smile. And, oh, how could you forget his metaphors. Augustus holds a funeral for himself and Hazel reads her eulogy. She tells him some infinities are bigger than other infinities and that Augustus gave her a forever within a finite number of days.

This post about the movie is lovely. And yes, I cried. So will you. Go catch this please.

For a bit more of background on the movie and how John Green gets inspiration for the plot, read this.

Ram-leela – enemies (in love).

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The intensity and fearlessness of Ram and Leela’s love is portrayed magically by Sanjay Leela Bhansali in this modern day epic love story. Despite a rather weak plot which revolves solely around “Romeo and Juliet”, Padukone’s portrayal as Leela blows you away. Apart from the gorgeous lenghas she looks like a queen nearly every second of the film, Padukone does justice by giving her character depth. Ignoring Ram’s heavily oiled torso, which is bare nearly half the time, Leela’s beauty keeps you enthralled. I managed to get by the movie majorly due to Leela and also, the electrifying chemistry between both leads. If you look past the dramatic sequences and focus on the grandeur and flamboyance of each scene, you will love Ram-leela.

2.5/5

Writing to heal?

I wonder if writing ever makes you heal faster. The feelings etched beneath your skin get inked on paper in the attempt of getting it off your chest.

Writing forces you to remember all the memories that flow in, like as if the floodgates have just been opened.

Writing makes you compartmentalise the happy memories from the sad and bitter ones. It gives you the option, or rather liberty, to either focus on the good or the bad.

Writing makes the first kiss all the more real as if the taste of it still lingers on your fingertips.

It makes you remember the time your heart skipped a beat as if it were running with the aid of a pacemaker and he was the master.

Everyone writes lyrically about the beauty of love when in love. After all, they say “at the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.” But when love turns painful, one tries to disguise it.

So beneath these naked words, lie painful memories that torment like a demon.

The Patchwork Marriage by Jane Green.

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I wasn’t having high expectations when I picked this book up as this is my first Jane Green novel. However, I’m glad to say, it outdid my expectations.

I enjoyed this book especially because, the author changes the viewpoint of the reader half way through the novel. I enjoyed seeing things through the shoes of Emily which made me feel for her character more.

Patchwork marriage, as the title suggests, is about family, love, divorce, kids. And also, teenage pregnancy and all the drama that follows suit.

“Sometimes, leaving the ones we love is the only we can take care of ourselves, and it’s the hardest thing in the world to do, but sometimes it’s the right thing to do.”

Rating: 3/5

Love life – Stricken.

Disclaimer: This is gonna be a heavy post. 

I might be somewhat of a morbid person cause I have a strong liking to watch movies that make me cry and literally hold my heart in my hands. I actually enjoy sitting through a movie where I constantly feel as though I’ve a dagger slashed up against my throat. Where I get so immersed in the film and the characters, that nothing else around me matters. Don’t get me wrong, I can enjoy a light-hearted rom-com just as much, but if you give me an option between a movie that would make you cry and one that you will laugh your stomach out, I’d choose the former.

That was exactly how I felt watching Stricken. It was a very good film I have enjoyed after a long time. A movie that made me cry, laugh (amidst my tears), think and question.

Is cheating nature or nurture? Is terminal illness an excuse for one to cheat? Are you expected to slip in the face of adversity? Are you expected to stay faithful even after your partner has passed on? Who has it harder, the one who has the cancer or the partner battling with losing the love of his life? Would you rather live life knowing how you many more months you have to live or live in the not knowing? Would you still love your husband if you know he’s cheating on you while you’re here battling cancer? How do you feel about the nights you spend in the toilet puking, while the one you promised to have and hold on to, in sickness and in health , ’till death do us apart is satisfying his lust with the body of another woman? The one with a better body and perfect breasts.

Here’s a good review about this film.

If you haven’t already deduced, this film is about love, cancer, cheating and fatherhood. I might even want to re-watch this again. Am I weird? Yes, I think so cause I like to battle sadness with sadness. I listen to sad songs when I’m sad. I hope I’m not alone in this.

Do you enjoy/hate watching movies that make you cry?

On the topic of grief and death, this article (Comforting that collides with grief) is a worthwhile read.

“Of all the things we learn as we go through life, learning how to express grief and sorrow is not among them until you are face to face with it.”

The power of words to heal the soul.

I have over almost a thousand favourite quotes/lines. No, I’m not exaggerating! From the books I read to the blogs I follow to song lyrics that get stuck in my head, anything that tugs a chord in my heart gets shared immediately via twitter (blame the convenience of social media if you think I’m tweeting excessively). Every now and then, especially while I’m commuting, I like to read my tweets to be inspired by those words and find strength to live life. The moment in time that has long passed, but never fails to slip my mind as I re-read my own words.

Despite all, there is a particular quote that I never have to put the effort to remember. It always comes to my mind when I’m stuck or when I’m questioning love and life at large.

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” – Mother Teresa

This will help us get by.

Better late than never!

 If you’re a bird, I’m a bird.

Don’t ask me why I haven’t watched this before despite being a HUGE Gosling fan! I don’t have an answer!

Here’s the lines I found beautiful from the movie.

Noah: I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who’s ever lived: I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

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Duke: They didn’t agree on much. In fact they rarely agreed on anything. They fought all the time and they challenged each other everyday…
Young Noah: [Allie and Noah are fighting] Don’t push me!
[Allie pushes Noah anyway]
Duke: …But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.

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Young Noah: So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s going to be really hard; we’re gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, everyday. You and me… everyday.

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Young Noah: My Dearest Allie. I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you. Noah

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Duke: She had come back into his life like a sudden flame, blazing and streaming into his heart. Noah stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony he knew would be his if he were to lose her twice.

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Duke: I think our love can do anything we want it to.

“I do”.

My recent picks in films clearly hasn’t served me well, but nonetheless, I need to write/rant about them.

1. My last day without you (2011)

On a one-day business trip to New York, a young German business executive falls in love with a singer-songwriter who exposes him to her Brooklyn world and emotions he’s never experienced before.

2. Take me home (2011)

Soon after Thom starts operating as an illegal taxi driver in New York City, Claire hires him to drive her to California after her estranged father suffers a heart attack.

3. Take this waltz (2011)

A happily married woman falls for the artist who lives across the street.

4. Last night (2010)

The story follows a married couple, apart for a night while the husband takes a business trip with a colleague to whom he’s attracted. While he’s resisting temptation, his wife encounters her past love.

Apart from the first film, the remaining 3  center around the plot of a married woman falling for another man. Last night includes both husband and wife falling for another person.

I then begin to wonder about love, marriage, vows, faithfulness. What all of these mean. What they are supposed to mean. The notion of marriage. The reason behind the words “I do”.

“You can be happy and still be tempted.” – Micheal Reed, Last night

Is it possible? Does love entail being exclusive? Being faithful? Is love second-guessed when you cheat or even when the mere possibility of it runs through you? Does love have the strength to endure an affair or a temptation? Do affairs cancel out if both husband and wife cheat only to realize it was nothing but a meaningless kiss or bodies that lusted for each other? Or does there lie a bigger truth behind the reason for the affair to begin with or for there to have been temptation at the very least? Unhappy, dissatisfied marriages? Or, curiosity to tiptoe the lines (i.e. boundaries) the marriage has been built around? Is love that powerful an emotion to ensure Man, both genders alike, steer away from the lust and temptations that lurk around them, outside the monogamous marriage and  relationships they are engaged in. Is this what love is all about? Monogamy?

With regards to succumbing to temptations, is there a weaker gender? Men or women? Or is it a question of the strength in willpower rather than gender per se?

“I saw you this morning, and in the middle of most nights when I can’t sleep, I still replay you.” – Joanna Read, Last night

I hope I find the my answers to these, before I say “I do”.

The morning after.

What do you do when you wake up one morning only to realize your nightmare wasn’t actually a nightmare? It actually is reality, the bitter truth. Waking up to that, stings. Every bone within you formulates questions. Questions that make you wonder if what you have always believed in even holds? Do they even hold any truth? Partial truth at the very least? Or do they just stem from sketches of your own make-belief reality? Of love and life. If maybe you might have been wrong in being so gullible and accepting things at surface level.  That sometimes even the nice turn bad. You just chose to believe otherwise. You chose to see the good in people that you turn a blind eye to underlying issues that need to be fixed. What do you do when your fundamentals get shaken? What do you when walking away crosses your mind? When your rock, your constant, deserts you?

I run.