The Perks of being a Wallflower.

When I heard that this book by Stephen Chbosky was going to be made in a movie, I was beyond thrilled! And doubly thrilled I had something to look forward to when I got back home after my Australia adventure!

Logan Lerman plays the character “Charlie” really well. He fits into the role of a misfit school kid who is trying to break free from himself, make friends and maybe even, fall in love, very well. He got me hooked with his quirky adolescence almost instantaneously. Ezra Miller who plays “Patrick” or should I say “Nothing” stood out to me particularly. More so then Emma Watson who fits perfectly into the character “Sam” – Charlie’s love interest. I liked Patrick in the movie more than in the book somehow, especially in the scenes when his mischief shines through to the audience so radiantly.

This bit below is from an entry back in November 2011.

Charlie, I saw so much of me in you. 

1. Wallflower

A person, usually in high school, who sees everything and knows everything that’s going on but doesn’t say a word. They aren’t loners, they are shy and don’t choose to be in the mix of things. A person nobody pays attention to, and fades into the background, but are really genuine and interesting people if you take the time to get to know them.

2. Wallflower

A person who see’s the world for what it really is, all the beauty and the ugly. Someone who knows life is only for the one who is not afraid to die and that joy is only for him who does not fear to be alone. These are the most amazing people you will ever meet and you will never, not even if you try, forget them.

3. Wallflower

Someone who isn’t necessarily shy, but never really tells you a lot about themselves. They observe almost everything and listen to everything you have to say without criticizing or judging. These people are often the most sincere, kind, and wonderfully interesting people, yet fail to be attractive to the opposite sex for some reason.

3 definitions that stood out to me then and still do now.

“Sam screamed the fun scream, and there it was. Downtown lights on

buildings and everything that makes you wonder.

Sam sat down and started laughing. Patrick started laughing.

I started laughing. and in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”

This definitely is my favourite movie of the year! Please catch this in cinemas if you can and I hope you are in love with it as much as I am!

Charlie, you stole my heart in the last scene when you felt infinite as “The Tunnel Song” (Heroes by David Bowie) played in the background.

Other lines from the movie that tugged a chord within.

“So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.”

“We didn’t talk about anything heavy or light. We were just there together. And that was enough”

“You can’t just sit there and put everyone’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things.”

“I want to make sure that the first person you kiss loves you. Okay?”

“It was the kind of kiss I could never tell my friends about out loud. It was the kind of kiss that made me know I was never so happy in my whole life.”

Chronic Dissatisfaction.

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Chronic Dissatisfaction, a term María Elena played by Penelope Cruz diagnoses Cristina to have in  the movie, Vicky Cristina Barcelona, as she is always dissatisfied with what she has, at present. She is always restless and aches for something new to happen in her life. It’s like she’s searching for something she doesn’t know what it even is. To label, let alone describe.

Have you ever found yourself in this position? I constantly do.

Vicky made me wonder about the harsh possibility of wanting/dreaming about something your whole life, that it eventually might end up as something you don’t quite want. In her case, it was a person, a life, a marriage she was about to set foot into. Sometimes, I think that the very reason for this paralysis of indecision to hit us when we need to make a decision is because, we have an abundance of choices before us.

In chapter 2 (Marriage & Expectation) of Committed: A Skeptic Makes Peace With Marriage, Elizabeth Gilbert says,

“When you have only one path set before you, you can generally feel confident that it was the correct path to have taken.”

Yes, I love this author, this book, this freaking chapter if you haven’t already deduced.

It’s the constant predicament we go through and the constant questioning of whether “this is really what we want” that inhibits us from making a decision in the first place.  Simply put, the paralysis of indecision.

“Vicky returned home to have her grand wedding to Doug. To the house they finally planned to settle in. And to lead the life she envisioned for herself, before that summer in Barcelona. Cristina continued searching… certain only, of what she didn’t want.”

I just finished a book by Sarah Dessen, The truth about forever.

“That was thing. You just never knew. Forever was so many different things. It was always changing, it was what everything was really all about. But there was only one truth about forever that really mattered, and that was this: it was happening.”

It reminded me, yet again, of the picturesque future, Utopia that we make up in our minds is all fictional. What we really have, is now. We don’t need labels for every aspect of our lives, we just to need live and let live. The forever, love claims to be about, might not be case. Forever begins from now, this moment. And this moment, is what counts. Not the happily ever after that might or might not be. As Priya Basil says in The Obscure Logic Of  The Heart,

“I don’t see a point of deferring happiness for some future promise of salvation.”

Going back to the film, it did great in capturing both the love and hate in the complex relationship(s) played by all four characters – María, Cristina, Vicky and Juan. Also, if you aren’t already in love with Barcelona, this film will help you lose yourself in the beautiful Gaudi architecture. And lastly, Woody Allen. Every of his film needs a watch. Enuff’ said.

So go catch this! It’s a very light-hearted movie about love, relationships and its complexities.

“Our love will last forever. It’s forever but it just doesn’t work. That’s why it will always be romantic because it cannot be complete.”

Looking for alaska.

John Green’s first novel and yet, I was blown away. I loved his style of writing. This book reminded me a lot of Perks of being a wallflower by Stephen Chbosky.

I loved the fact the ending wasn’t happy nor were all the questions raised, answered. It felt so real, that it didn’t even feel like I was reading a fictional work. In John Green’s words when asked about the ending,

“The truth is that in our lives we are all going to encounter questions that should be answered, that deserve to be answered, and yet probe unanswerable. Can we find meaning to life without those answers? Can we find a way to acknowledge the reality (and injustice) of suffering without giving in to hopelessness? Those are the questions I think Miles is confronting at the end, and I wanted to argue that through forgiveness, it is possible to live a full and hopeful life – even if our world is saturated with injustice and loss.”

Please read this book if you haven’t or re-read it, if it has faded away from your memory. I literally couldn’t put this book down and finished it within a span of hours.

There is such beauty in tragedy.

Any of his other works that you’d like to recommend me?

Blue Valentine.

It’s a love story, a very real and heartbreaking story. I’m not going to give away the plot, but it’s a very simple and possible story line.

I love how the movie unfolds and scenes alternates so quickly, juxtaposing then and now.

Plus, there’s gosling. Boy, I could look at him all day.

I find myself having so many emotions within a short span of time. One minute, I’m hating both characters and the next, I feel sorry for them all over again and have a lump in my throat. It gets pretty intense. I might need a while to get over this film. So, please excuse me.

“I didn’t want to be somebody’s husband and I didn’t want to be somebody’s dad, that wasn’t my goal in life. But somehow it was. I work so I can do that.”

Catch this if you haven’t already. You might love it as much as I do.

Paris, Je T’aime.

Paris, Je T’aime features 18 short stories shot in various parts of Paris involving different casts and directors. I’m not sure if watching this after having watched New York, I love you made the difference, or not; but I thoroughly enjoyed this much more.

There are a few stories that reached out to me more than the rest.

Quais de Seine – a young french man striking up a friendship with a young Muslim woman despite poking fun at all the other women that passed by him when he with his 2 other friends. This story felt refreshing as usually, no one makes the effort to extend friendship to a person who shares no visible similarity with themselves. I enjoyed the innocence in the friendship.

Bastille – a man who intends on leaving his marriage for a much younger lover ends up staying with his wife after she reveals to him about the terminal illness she has been plagued with. He rediscovers the love he once felt for her as he tends to every need of hers, sacrificing his own happiness at times. I enjoyed the selflessness the man showed. The selflessness, love is supposed to stand for.

“A life he was planning to quit between the entree and dessert.”

“Every little thing had a different flavor, knowing he’d never be able to do it for her again.”

“By acting like a man in love, he became a man in love again.”

Place des Victoires – a mother grieving over the death of her son and seeks comfort by a magical cowboy. Poignant acting by the mother, I was moved.

“Where did you get this strength?”

“From God.”

Place des detes – a Nigerian man is nursed by a lady paramedic as he’s dying from a stab wound. He asks her to have a cup of coffee with him as he recognizes her face.  He had apparently fallen in love with her since the first time he saw her. By the time she remembers him, and the coffee she had ordered arrives, he has died.

14th arrondissement – a woman’s love affair with Paris.

“Then something happened, something difficult to describe. Sitting there, alone in a foreign country, far from my job and everyone I know, a feeling came over me. It was like remembering something I’d never known before or had always been waiting for, but I didn’t know what. Maybe it was something I’d forgotten or something I’ve been missing all my life. All I can say is that I felt, at the same time, joy and sadness. But not too much sadness, because I felt alive. Yes, alive. That was the moment I fell in love with Paris. And I felt Paris fall in love with me.”

Paris, Je T’aime. Always.

5 reasons why Rockstar is my favouritest bollywood movie of 2011.

1.  Ranbir Kapoor’s acting. From an actor who starred in Wake Up Sid and Anjaana Anjaani, Ranbir’s acting in Rockstar is just mind-blowing. He seems to have grown so much and portrayed the right amount of depth to his character splendidly. Other than Amir Khan, I don’t see any other actor pulling of the character, Jordan. New-found respect for Ranbir after Rockstar.

2. The plot to be honest isn’t fantastic but the cinematography by Anil Mehta was stunning. From the beautiful set locations in Kashmir and Prague to capturing Jordan’s and Heer’s love madness, escapades and then Heer’s illness. I was truly impressed. After all, he shot Lagaan, Kal Ho Naa Ho, Veer Zaara and Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna, so, I shouldn’t be that surprised right?

3. A true musical journey. I’m not going to be doing justice if I sing praises about A.R. Rahman’s Oscar winning musical talents, would I? I will just let the songs blow you away like they do to me each time I hear it. Mohit Chauhan’s voice literally is honey.

Apologies I couldn’t locate a proper video of the song! Ranbir’s boy face will do for now 😉

My top 3 songs specifically in this order.

4. Imtiaz Ali’s direction. The beautiful ending with the montage of Jordan’s and Heer’s moments together. Jordan letting the memories of Heer envelope him with the crowd cheering him on.

5. The fact Nargis Fakhri can’t act, further makes Ranbir’s acting shine so much more. Which kind of leads me back to reason #1. In a weird way, she kind of fits the sickly, dying character, Heer.

Currently.

The post below has been inspired by Danielle so I take no credit for the idea.

Reading: Elizabeth Gilbert’s Eat, Pray, Love. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve read this but I’m re-reading this again and then gonna get started on Committed. I still can’t decide if I prefer EPL the book or the movie starring Julia Roberts. If my house was burning down, this would definitely be one of the books I’ll save. Followed by Perks of being a wallflower and then Mitch Albom’s books. Tuesdays with Morrie is my favourite.

Watching/listening to: Adele’s royal albert hall performance.

I might have already watched this 48.65 times but I just cannot get enough of this. I used to enjoy her music on it’s own but after this concert of hers, no prizes for guessing the latest addition to my bucket list. TO WATCH HER CONCERT LIVE! Her personality just shines through so brilliantly with her little anecdotes before every song, jokes and laughter. She doesn’t wear a mask or try and hide her real self from her audience. It’s almost rare to find such a celebrity/artiste these days isn’t it? Tell me which other celebrity can remark “I’m such a emotional wreck” and laugh off her tears after rendering “Someone like you” – her famous break-up record from her album 21!

Buying this album was such a perfect start to my year. Adele is such a vocal goddess. Please check this concert out if you haven’t, I assure you best 99 mins and 19 seconds ever spent.

Working on: All the things I’ve started on this week alone. OMG!

The highlight would be this – The Smart Local. As the name suggests it’s a broader version of Hungrygowhere. You can find reviews of anything and everything available in Singapore here. Helpful site for both locals and foreigners. Do check them out!

Also, working on my bucket list for Australia. Listography is such an awesome page for you to collate all your bucket lists and tick them off as and when you complete them. How cool is that?!

Thinking about: To swim twice before Monday. Travel plans for this year.

Anticipating: I need to get my hands on a couple of books. Times seems to have ran out of all the books I’ve wanted. Boohoo! Buying books in Singapore has become a pain and hassle after the closing of Borders and Page One. We just have Times, MPH and Kinokuniya left. Popular doesn’t really count, does it? Have I missed any other bookstore out?

1. The lazy millionaire by Marc Fisher.

2. Looking for Alaska by John Green.

I might just settle for Amazon. Pfft.

Feel free to do your own “currently” post. You might just have as much fun as I did. Have a great weekend, lovely people!

P.S. I’m new to this, so I’d appreciate all the love I can get. Merci beaucoup.